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Following her painful break-up from rapper Zion Foster, X-Factor champion Jesy Nelson has chosen to share details of her personal journey in the intimate documentary series Jesy Nelson: Life After Little Mix.

The singer revealed that viewing the completed six-part documentary made her realise just how turbulent her life had been. “One minute you're laughing, one minute you're crying, then you've got anxiety. It's a lot,” she confided to Closer magazine.

However, Jesy disclosed that her mum harboured concerns about the potential consequences of such an intimate project. “My mum's been on this journey with me since I first entered the industry and she's seen what it’s done to my confidence and how mentally it's affected me,” she explained.

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She has previously been candid about how life in the spotlight took its toll on her mental health.

“When I decided I wanted to do this documentary,” Jesy continued, “she was just so scared because she knows how happy I was when I got pregnant – she feared that letting the cameras back in was going to ruin all that for me.”

Jesy, 34, revealed to the Daily Mail that the pressure of caring for twin babies facing multiple severe health complications had contributed to her separation from Zion. “We have been through such a traumatic experience and for us, our girls are our main priority and our main focus,” she said.

“We want to give them the most positive, happy and uplifting time and energy, and because we have both been through such an ordeal, the energy wasn’t right between us, which is understandable.”

Jesy disclosed back in May that their twin daughters had arrived early at 31 weeks and five days after her pregnancy was deemed “high-risk” due to a dangerous placental complication known as twin-to-twin transfusion syndrome. The condition causes uneven blood flow, with excessive blood being transferred from one twin to the other.

After spending several weeks in neonatal intensive care, the two girls were discharged from hospital but were later diagnosed with spinal muscular atrophy (SMA) type 1 — a hereditary condition that, until recent years, was often considered fatal. Advances in gene therapy and medical treatment have improved survival rates and quality of life, though Jesy has said her daughters may never walk independently.

"The thing with SMA is, all you can do is take each day as it comes," Jesy said. "When they first got their diagnosis, I felt like my whole world had completely been turned upside down, but they've had their treatment and things are getting better. I try not to look too far into the future, as you just drive yourself insane."

It was amid this extraordinarily challenging period that Jesy Nelson and Zion Foster reportedly called time on their four-year relationship, just four months after announcing their engagement.

Her documentary is expected to explore these deeply personal issues, alongside the well-documented rift with her former Little Mix bandmates.

The group, which was assembled by Simon Cowell and his fellow judges after the members' individual X-Factor auditions, went on to become one of the programme's most triumphant acts across its 17-year run.

They achieved five UK number-one singles and amassed 30 Top 40 hits. All six of their albums reached the UK Top Four, with their first two also performing strongly in the United States.

Little Mix remain the only girl group to spend 100 weeks in the UK Top 10. However, Jesy has said the darker side of that fame was relentless online abuse, much of it directed squarely at her.

“It’s like a drug,” she told The Guardian. “I was reading it every day. The minute I got up it was the first thing I did. I’d type in ‘Jesy Nelson’ and then ‘Jesy Nelson fat’ or ‘Jesy Nelson ugly’, and read what everyone said about me.”

The abuse had a devastating impact on Jesy’s mental wellbeing, ultimately leading to her being admitted to hospital following a suspected overdose.

That period deeply affected her mother Janis. “I think she felt like a bad mum — that she didn’t know how bad it was,” Jesy revealed.

“She was really disappointed in herself, which absolutely crushes me, because there was no way Mum could have known unless I’d sat down and spoken to her about it.

“Mum wanted me to come out of the group. My mum, still to this day, would rather me go back to being a barmaid than doing this.”